DIARY OF A DEAD WOMAN☁️💭

It was beautiful and i felt like a princess who just got married to her Prince Charming,the feeling i had for him was above any word I could think of. But after the wedding he changed thou i knew that he had a dominating character before we got married and often he gets insecure over little things but this sudden metamorphosis was quite different. And the first day he slapped me and I cried he came begging and he promised never again but he did it again and again and again and these times it was not just a slap on a cheek nor on both, he beats and raped me. I thought about it, I wanted to leave him but my marriage was just 3years old and my children,my twins I can't render homeless,and what will the society say about me and my children? And i had promised for better, for worse so i strayed back and i swallowed my pain. And once in a while he came and he would act normally and I will forget he was violating me until we have a little fight and he does it again,so I suggested he needed help that he needs to see a specialist because evidently he was sick he took offense and he beats me saying I called him a mad person. And once again I thought about leaving him but I couldn't because the woman i ran into the day before said something about loose women who leave their homes and children because of little fights, the society won't accept me i thought to myself they will label me a loose woman and I couldn't talk to anyone because they would judge me just like my friends did so I strayed and I cried my sorrow and continued with the charade of leading a happy marriage with my perverted spouse. 

But a day came when he got so crazy i was on the phone with my a male colleague from work so he came in and heard me giggle so he snatched the phone and hit it against the wall he held me by my hair and he threw me on the floor I landed on my head and I started bleeding profusely the dazziness I felt gave way to a dark and still place I couldn't fathom what was going on until I realized that it meant I was DEAD...🌫🌫

 If I could go back and claim my life and the power I gave him to decide my destiny. If I could go back and take my children and toss his ring down his throat and shun what the society have to say because society isn't dead am the one who is lifeless. I have made my mistakes do not make the same for this violence which I couldn't raise my voice against has rendered me voiceless forever....